Saturday, July 30, 2011

July 30

  The contest is over now.  Time to pack up our bags, turn off the lights, lock the doors, and be on our separate ways.  It was nice knowing you.  Thank you, Laura, for letting me be part of Lighten Up.  Thank you, Jaime & Hannah, for education and encouragement.  The contest has made a world of difference in my life.  Congratulations to all the contestants. 

 

  Wait a minute.  I've still got weight I want to lose.  I'm still going to eat healthy, exercise, and reflect. 

 

  And I'm still gonna blog; The News Herald is graciously allowing me to continue to do so under its wing.  When I have the details, I'll post them here so that you can continue the ride with me. 

 

We've only just begun.

 

~Karin

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

July 26: I'm Awesome!

  As I continue to receive photos of myself from the triathlon, and as I continue to celebrate the weight loss success of other contestants and friends, I feel a compulsion to apologize for myself, for how I look, for what I've done or haven't done.  But you know what?  That stops now. 

 

  How did I do in the contest?  Let's take a look at my January application for Lighten Up.

            I'm working to lose 100 pounds so that I can make the most of post-cancer life, be a role model of health to my 3 kids and their friends, and see the beauty my husband claims to see in me.  I revel in the strength I feel when I lift weights or challenge myself on cardio equipment, but I struggle to overcome sweet-tooth-binges.   I long to feel comfortable when I take my kids summer swimming, to wear a pretty new dress, and to boost my friends' belief in themselves.  I need to overcome unhungry eating.

 

Am I a healthy role model to my kids?  YES!  I'm teaching them fitness, bravery, cooking, trying again, and knowing that they are loved and worthy of love.

 

Do I feel comfortable taking my kids swimming?  YES!  My body isn't perfect, and that's okay.  I haven't seen or heard anyone making fun of me, and even if they do, I know that their derision would come from the lack of love and confidence in their lives.

 

Have I worn a pretty new dress?  YES!  I wore it and was complimented and felt great.  I wasn't perfect, but so what?  I had a great time, I made myself vulnerable, and I was loved.

 

Have I boosted my friends' belief in themselves?  YES!

 

Do I see my own beauty?  Not yet; but Rome wasn't built in a day.

 

Are there goals I'm still working towards?  YES!  And that's a good thing.  Goals give me direction, a way towards that sweet feeling of accomplishment.

 

  I've done brilliantly well and achieved things I hadn't even thought of back in January.  I've ridden amusement park rides, reached my soul out to those of others, and learned to believe in myself while taking myself less seriously.  I accept my geeky smile.  Through rain, snow, heat, and humidity I've gotten out of my cozy bed and challenged my body at the gym.  I've learned how to keep myself going when the going gets tough.  I've eaten more vegetables, and even planted a garden of fennel.  I've found comfort in my own skin, its imperfection, and the glory of life's preposterousness.

 

  I am not an outsider at the party of life.  I'm more than an invited guest: I'm a loved one! 

 

~Karin

Monday, July 25, 2011

July 25: Motivation!

  Ladies & Gentlemen: I've just received a brand new load of Weight Loss Motivation!  It arrived in the form of photos taken of me during the triathlon.  Seeing what I look like riding my bike…  there are no words.  However, I will not berate myself; rather I will appreciate even more that I completed a triathlon, and I did so a person who is obese, strong, and determined.

 

  So though the contest comes to an end this weekend, I'm hitting the restart button. By next year, I'd like to cut twelve minutes from my triathlon time.  A large part of that will come from more intense biking, but also through a couple other fitness programs and consistent healthful eating.  Of course, it'll also take place in real life, which means surgery, holidays, and the unexpected.

 

  Stay tuned!

 

~Karin

Sunday, July 24, 2011

July 24: After Words

  Have I ever completed a triathlon?  Yes I have, thanks for asking.  As a matter of fact, I finished one just today! 

 

  What's that?  Did I get tangled in the buoy rope when I started my swim?  Well, yes, but I did untangle myself pretty quickly.  Wouldn't you agree?

 

  The 500 meter swim?  Oh, much better than my prior lake swim.  Swimming in a crowd takes some getting used to, but I was able to see the buoys and I think I didn't ingest too much water this time, so it's a success!

 

  The 20K bike ride?  What was THAT about?  It took twice as long as I expected.  There's me pedaling along, and there's everyone else pedaling half as quickly and passing me like Bugs Bunny on fast forward!  Clearly I've got some bike work to do.

 

  The 5K run?  No, dearie, it was a walk for me, remember?  And though I was ready to quit in a crying heap just mere moments after beginning this third leg of the race, my husband's encouraging "just three right turns and you're done" got me through all 5 of those Ks.

 

  And even before I left Fairport Harbor, I was already thinking, "Wow, if I lose a bunch more weight, I might be able to shave minutes off my time."

 

  THANK YOU to the organizers and volunteers of the Lake Metroparks Pirate Triathlon.  Thank you, my family; thank you, my friends.  Though I still have a hard time seeing what I did as a noteworthy accomplishment, it is nonetheless an accomplishment, and one that happened because of you.

 

~Karin

Friday, July 22, 2011

July 22 Part Two: A bright side

  The other night my dear friend and I were discussing exercise boredom.  To be honest, for the past couple months I've been forcing myself to use indoor gym equipment when the great outdoors weren't an option.  I haven't even looked forward to weightlifting class.  I went because regular exercise is something I need, and these forms of exercise had become my routine.

 

  Fliers for the upcoming exercise classes (pilates, yoga) have been catching my eye, and reports from my friends about their awesome classes (yoga, zumba) have been filling my ears.  But with triathlon coming up and strength training being so important, I didn't give any of these options serious thought.

 

  Until yesterday.

 

  Yesterday my doctor told me that after surgery I'll have to spend several months not weightlifting, not swimming, and not using a treadmill.  Any exercise I do will have to be non-jarring.

 

   Hmm.  Like yoga.  Or pilates.  Friends who participate in both classes have regaled me with tales of dripping with sweat from these classes.

 

  So it looks like this fall I'm going to start a whole new exercise routine.  Yes, I'll somewhat miss weightlifting, but I'm excited for new challenges.  I believe Someone is guiding me to try something new.  And if there's one thing I like, while keeping my circle of loved ones intact, it's change.

 

~Karin

July 22 Part One: To tri or not to tri

  It wasn't the news of pending surgery that rendered me incoherent with tears in my doctor's office.  Rather it was the following exchange:

Me:  Would it be stupid for me to swim in the lake with this hole in my ear?

Doctor: In a word: Yes.

Fortunately for me, my wonderful husband was able to speak and tell the doctor about the triathlon.  And the good doctor listened, understood what I was feeling, and offered a plan to minimize risk.

 

  I spent most of the day wondering whether I should still participate in the triathlon.  In addition to positive anticipation, I've had the nervousness that goes into such an event; if you've been reading this blog for any length of time, you know all about that.  So here I was with a perfect excuse: no one would blame me for not competing if I had a real medical reason.

 

  Last night I picked up my packet (my first race number!!!) and stuck around for a little introductory session.  I met some fellow racers (Am I their fellow racer?  Am I a racer?) and checked out the start line, the transition area, and the finish line (which made me well up all over again).  And any of the anxiety I'd been feeling about the event drifted away as if on an outgoing tide. 

 

  On Sunday I'm going to follow my doctor's precautionary plan.  On Sunday I'm going to become a triathlete.  J

 

~Karin

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

July 20: The funnest bike rider in the world

  Yes, yes, you don't have to tell me: I know that funnest isn't really a word.  And that you're not supposed to start a sentence with but or and.  But bike riding is so much fun, and I've just returned from a very fun bike ride, and I don't want to blather on about "I am one who derives great pleasure from the experience of bicycling."  Bah!  Come with me, and you too might be one of the funnest bike riders in the world!

 

  We start out this morning with no other plan than to ride our bikes.  Traffic is light, so we go this way.  While going this way, we remember a hill we've been wanting to practice on.  And then we remember that said hill is not only in the opposite direction, bu that happens to be not too far from our friends' house and another fun-looking hill.  So we wind our way in and out, up and down the grey and black patchwork of streets, past the shopping plazas and movie theater, and towards the rising sun.

 

  Being the funnest bikers we are, of course we know other bikers and are happy to meet a fellow biker-ess out and about this morning.  Naturally we stop for a chat and we chat about our happy morning bikey-ness before bidding each other Good day!  And then we – that's you and I, my funnest biking companion – decide to explore a little.  We see some morning animals, some sunrise-pondering people.  We bike to where the sidewalk ends at a cliff (yikes! slow down!), and turn happily around, biking up a little grassy place (because yes, we are strong enough to bike through grass).  And we're good enough to not bang into the tree, despite its lure and refusal to move out of the way.

 

  Our goal at this park is, of course, the hill that originates in the lovely lake.  We're careful downhill, using brakes so we don't end up bicycling to Canada by mistake.  After all, we haven't packed a lunch.  And at the bottom of the hill, on the hill we played on as kids, we're greeted by golden morning sun so brilliant it tattoos smiles on our faces.  We look around in wonder at the effect the light has on the wildflowers growing between the rocks.  We hear the birds and the waves and the little sounds that have been here long before us and will be here long after.

 

  And then we turn around, muster our courage and might, and bike. up.  that.  hill.  Yes, pedaling should be about nice smooth circles, but in this case, we'll settle for a slow, staccato march on the pedals.  Don't panic, it's not that big a hill.   Just aim for that little tree up ahead.  And here we go.  No, you're not stuck at a standstill, let alone slipping backwards.  You're doing awesome!  Strong hams, strong quads -- they're working!  Yippee!  We did it!  We passed the tree and are back on our way!

 

  Hm.  A friend lives down this street; let's bike down the street and explore.  Huh.  Never been over there before.  What's that?  Oh how pretty!  Hey, look over there!  And back up the street.

 

  And now the street of other friends, the street with a couple nice up-and-downs.  Pass the nice lady who calls out Hello from her front step.  And wheeee!wegodownthehillsuperfastandourmomentumcarriesusacrossandhalfwayuptheretill we have to start pedaling again.  And, oh!  The lake!  Don't linger too long because we'vegotanotherhilltoridedownlickedysplitwheeeeeeeee!  And up again.  Pass the nice lady who calls out something about inspiring her to ride her bike.  Smile and wave, keep pedaling.

 

  Pedal, pedal, pedal.  Intersections and bumps.

 

  Around the corner.

 

  And home again.

 

~Karin